I’ve been having really freaky dreams about myself getting into an elevator and instead of it bringing me to the floor I want to go to, the elevator has its mind of its own and takes over, ascending or descending uncontrollably. Sometimes the elevator decides to ascend till it breaks through the roof and then flies around in the air. While at other times, it decides to ascend till the top floor and then plummets towards earth- but I walk out of the elevator safe and unhurt. What’s even more weird is that these dreams occur quite often, the last time being this morning!!!

This morning, the elevator flew upwards and broke through the roof. A few people were in it with me- my mom, sis and 3 other people- all of which were females. As soon as we were up in the air (still inside the elevator), the elevator door burst opened, and 1 of the females decided to jump off the elevator to sky dive while the rest of us remained inside. The flying elevator eventually descended gracefully onto a hill. We were all safe.

SO WEIRD. (at least no one was hurt.. or.. died. That would be so tragic. Gah!)

I googled just a while ago to read up on what this kind of dreams might mean. Here’s a falling dream interpretation:

This is a common dream which usually represents underlying fears and feelings of inadequacy and helplessness. Interpret your dream by considering your primary fears, current difficulties, and situations in your life that seem to be on a downward spiral, especially those situations that seem outside of your control (financial, romantic,etc.). Some people believe that if you keep falling in your dream and don’t wake up that you will die at the point of impact. This is absolutely not true. In a falling dream you wake up out of fear and not because of danger of dying. Superstition based dream interpretations say that if you fall a long distance in your dream and get hurt, be prepared for really hard times ahead; but if you fall and are not injured your upsets will be minor and temporary.

PHEW (at the last part). Hmm.. underlying fears and feelings of inadequacy and helplessness… current difficulties, situations out of my control… DAMN, So right on the spot yawww. =SS =((

Here’s another one.

Dreaming that you are ascending in an elevator means that you will quickly rise to status and wealth. You may have risen to a higher level of consciousness and are looking at the world from an elevated viewpoint. Descending in an elevator indicates that misfortunes will crush and discourage you. The up and down action of the elevator may represent the ups and downs of your life go emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious. Dreaming that the elevator is out of order or that it is not letting you off, symbolizes that your emotions have gotten out of control.

Wah. So depressing. =( SIGH! Have my emotions gotten out of control? Hmmm. Sometimes I think, yes. Especially lately, with all the stupid education shiz. *gulp*. I can’t help it okay, I’m the sensitive, pessimistic type! Sheessh, I wish they started that paragraph with the negative part first and thennn the positive. That would make things a little better… ending with a positive note. Hahaha. It does make a difference to me at least! =P Call me weird… whatever!

I hope I won’t have anymore freaky elevator dreams because I think I’ve developed a slight elevator-phobia. I’m scared something will go wrong with it. That’s why I always avoid using elevators unless there’s someone I know with me. only then I’ll be ok. Also, the thought of being in an elevator ALONE is freaky. Stupid horror movies! hmmph.

On a totally different note, there’s…

* 5 more days till our 5th Year Anniversary! *
* 13 more days till Vee’s Birthday! *
* 14 more days till Vee steps foot on bruland! *
* 27 more days till my 20th Birthday! *
* 38 more days till Christmas! *
* 44 more days left of 2008! *

hehe! Cheers! =)

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EDIT:::::

Clint says (12:51 AM):
can you google my dream?
Clint says (12:51 AM):
last night i dreamt i was stuck in the vito
Clint says (12:51 AM):
IN REVERSE
Clint says (12:51 AM):
and it crashed
Clint says (12:51 AM):
but i survived
Clint says (12:51 AM):
haha
felicia says (12:51 AM):
HAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY
Clint says (12:52 AM):

felicia says (12:53 AM):
Im kidding!!! =S

*2 minute pause*

Clint says (12:56 AM):
can u check?
felicia says (12:56 AM):
HAHAHAHA OK

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I dunno ’bout you but I found this funny. hahaha!

Caution: totally bitchy post.

Monday blues? Tuesday blues? Hm. I’ve been having TWO bad days in a row. I get agitated really easily and as much I hate feeling this way, there’s nothing I can do abt it. PMS, no, it isn’t. Maybe I’m just SICK of this retarded life I’m currently living now. I like being on the go. I like having something to look forward to, having something to DO- something that leads me SOMEWHERE and not something that just brings me back to where I stand.

Sigh. I can’t wait to leave Brunei and continue with my life. I never thought I’d say this ever, but I really miss studying. I miss dead lines. I miss homeworks.. and basically, just learning new things, meeting new people. I can’t wait.

Anyway, I’ve been spring cleaning my iTunes for the past few days. I realized I have so many crap songs and a lot of EMO songs. Grrr. I deleted a lot of them already and am still deleting every song that I don’t like. I need nicer songs.. more upbeat ones. I’m starting to really like dancey songs. and OMG, i REALLY HATE 2nd hand serenade’s song.. The one that goes like.. “tonight will be the night that i will fall for you.. over again… don’t make me change my mind.. ” Urgh. What makes it worst is that they play it on pilihan A LOT. Sheesh. And i don’t understand how one of the djs thinks it’s like the most romantic song. =\

I feel like ranting today. So here’s another issue I have that I’ve been wanting to blog about. This time it’s regarding a bank and their UNRELIABLE SERVICE. Last Sunday, I went to Baiduri’s Kiarong branch to check my account balance through their ATM. As careless as I am, I mistyped the last number of my pin. Well, guess what? THAT DIDN’T MATTER! I was SHOCKED. Then I thought Ok, maybe it’s just a one time thing. So I re-inserted my ATM card again and typed in my pin number, but changed the last digit number to ANOTHER number again and guess what- Same thing again- I could access my account. THE HELL? I tried the same thing again, only with different last digit numbers yet again (in total, 5 times.) And of all of those times, I could access my account. Talk about unreliablility? I’m totally sakai about ATMs because I just recently started using them.. but is this even ACCEPTABLE? HELL NO. I totally don’t feel secure about their ATMS anymore. Should I trust their other services as well? I told my mom about it and she was APPALLED and told me to close my account as soon as I receive my money and open an account in HSBC. Urgh. I never really liked that bank anyway. Honestly, I never was treated nicely there.. neither did I even feel welcomed. And I really HATE BAD SERVICE. Ask Clinton and he’ll tell you how much I whine and bitch about bad service. hahaha.

Another thing- I’m so sick of people with FREAKING FAKE ACCENTS and people who CHANGE THEIR FACEBOOK PIC LIKE EVERY 5 MINUTES. (fine, i’m exaggerating a bit but you get my drift.) URGH. I don’t get why some people think speaking like every other angmoh is like uber cool or what and they themselves try so hard to achieve that accent when in fact, all they achieve is sounding so GROSS. And about facebook pic, urgh, you wouldn’t even want me to get started with that.

Oh god. I can’t believe I have an AKON song. To the BIN it goes! =\

I HOPE TMRW WILL BE A BETTER DAY. Sorry this is such a bitchy post! HA! =\

I saw this on Amanda’s blog and thought it was interesting so here’s my version.

Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation. Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

1. The age you’ll be on your next birthday.

Sigh. Yeah, I feel old. hahahaha.

2. A place you’d like to travel to.

Paris.

3. Your favourite place.

4. Your favourite food.

pastaaaaa.

haha. dogs.

I like shades of red.

I don’t have a favourite. But I like dressing up in a comfortable top paired with dark-washed skinny jeans, with a cute bag and heels. I also like chic cocktail dresses.

11. The town you live in.

13. Your dream job.

14. A bad habit you have.

Procrastination!

15. Your worst fear.

Alright then I’m finally done with this! I tag Shenny, Jasmine, Amilyn, Lin ji and Joshua. and kevin (do it on your hardward website ;P haha) and lu wee if you’re reading this. and whoever else interested. bwah, everyone! hehehe.

Everyone in my department was unbelievably really nice to me today and it was so weird! I didn’t really understand why. Why couldn’t they be like that every other day? We talked more than we used to and smiled more to each other. Why must it be only at the very end?, and then say, “sorry if I ever offended you, pls don’t take anything to the heart.. heh heh…“. 1 word. Peesh.

Okay. I guess it’s also my bad that I took things too personal. But hey, that has always been me. And yes, I should work on that part. 2 things I learnt from this experience is that office politics is inevitable and although difficult, you should try not to mix work relationship with personal relationship. Sure, your colleagues would be really harsh with you at work, “but that is just work.” Yeh, my ex-boss started a conversation with me at the last 2 hours of my stay, starting with “Hmm, so I never got the chance to talk to you ah…” only with me ending the convo by walking to the pantry. HAHA! Hey, it was getting too weird, and it wasn’t like we had much to say anyway, other than about our education life. *snores* =\ lol. I kid.

Everyone questioned, “Why so abrupt?”. I was all out of my element, honestly speaking. But everyone else assumed my resignation is due to further studies, and I didn’t mind that at all. During my stay there, I’ve witnessed the way different types of departments work. And I question myself - is this what I would want to put myself into in the future? Oh, the amount of stress.. everyone’s gloomy faces.. strict voices.. You can just feel the tension in the air! it’s soo… urgh. I understand now what my mom goes through and why she said working in a bank is so stressful. Who would want to work in such stressful environment? Money makes people happy, no doubt. But when you deal with money, trust me, it’s the total opposite.

Life is too short. And I believe that if you are not happy doing something, then by all means, stop doing it. but make sure you have your plan B. he he =P

Putting all negatives aside, I was glad and thankful to have been given the opportunity to work there though. I am very grateful for the working experience I’ve gained, the many new things that I’ve learnt, and the new genuine friendships that I’ve made. I will definitely use the invaluable experience I’ve gained for my benefit in the future. =) Working life is no doubt challenging and stressful, but having friends like these at work makes it oh so much better. They’re undeniably the nicest and funniest people I’ve met throughout my stay and I’m lucky to have met them.

This was taken at Kern’s Cafe during lunch break. We had nasi katok haha! I think it was a buck. Too bad it wasn’t nyaman. They’re all from different departments and I met them (except Raynold) at Jerudong Amphitheatre during one of the bank’s hari raya concert thing where the 3 of us were selected to help out. We had our hair and make up done that night but forgot to take a pic!! damn. :\

Hehe anyway!, they held a surprise farewell party for me at like about 4.30pm. 2 of my colleagues went out for a while and then came back with food and drinks in 2 bags.. and I was asking them whose birthday was it??? Lol. It was so funny when Jess panicked and just said “Uhh… dunno!” It turned out that Iqbal (from another department) was resigning the same day as well so the both of us made our farewell speaches.

This is was E-bkg, minus Lynn!

Other pics..

The tart Zie gave me earlier on at work. It was so good! She made it herself. hehe, waw.

At the Hawaian Beach Party last Saturday.

I’m too lazy to upload more photos. There’s too many! This should suffice for now. Otherrrr pics coming soon! =)

gnite!

Hey guys! So much had happened recently and I really want to blog about them but I haven’t had the chance to. I’m really trying to balance my work and social life. I never imagined how just part time work could be so exhausting. So much so that all I want to do when I come home from a long day at work is sleep. It’s getting better though. They’re treating me better and that’s a good thing. I’m also trying to socialize more with them. I’m glad I pushed on and didn’t just give up like how I intended to. However, the stress is building up even more. I’ve been doing more work lately and going home later than the usual 5- which sucks,.. because I get even more tired. When I had just started work, I used to get up at 6.30. Now, 7.50. Hah. =P It’s a good thing the office is only 10 mins away.

Anyway, enough about work. I’m starting to hate that word. Oh hey that sounded like it rhymed. hahaha.

I need to rap this up now cos I’ve got a date tonight with my boyfie. hehehe. He’s taking me out in a while. I’m really tired and want to sleeeeep but I really wanna see him.

Tomorrow, I’ve got a Hawaian themed beach party at the empire, and then a triple dinner date later on with Shenny, Jenny and Adrena. Weehewww!

Sunday- might go for sunday splash.

okies, got to go get ready now. ciaos.

Yesterday was Pink Day. =\

Hahaha. Hi! I’m getting ready for work right now but since I haven’t updated for almost 2 weeks, i thought I write something here today. Okay um,…. Basically, the title sums it up.. and I gotta have breakfast now. so ciaos! I’ll probably update this tonight.

3 golden rules:
• state 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself
• The 10 people I tag are then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts
• No tag backs (:

hahaha. I got tagged by Lin Ji. So here goes.

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